What are your Priorities? {2017}

Before we rang in 2017, I began to consider my OneWord for the new year. I have been writing about my OneWord every year since 2013, when God hammered the word GRACE into me like a nail driven hard into a piece of wood. That became the inspiration for this blog, and I find that God continues to demonstrate his grace upon grace in my often unknowingly legalism-prone heart.

I now find myself a new woman since 2013. I am married. I own a car. I have a full-time job. I rent a home with my husband. I pay my student loan bills (begrudgingly some  months). What could my OneWord be this year? What would I like to pursue and ask God to awaken in my heart and in my life in 2017?

I will start with a story. A couple days before the new year, I considered going back to the basics with my word for this year. With what could I fill my year, if not some foundational element of my life and of my faith? I considered my goal before all the other goals. We all have those fleeting goals: make the bed every morning, spend less time on Facebook, eat more healthily. But what is my foundational goal? In a sense: Why am I here?

My husband and I have been working through Henry Blackaby’s Experiencing God Day by Day on and off since we were dating. When we were long distance, we could read the day’s page to each other over the phone, and now that we’re married, we read the day’s page together before bed. I love that it has a section with blank lines to write your own thoughts and reflections. I typically start each of my reflections by writing the year, so we can look back over how we have processed the devotion each year.

As he read the page corresponding to that day (a couple days before the new year), my heart stirred.

The disciples were often preoccupied with how to meet their physical needs… Jesus repeatedly assured them that the Father knew their needs and would provide… Jesus stressed that their priority was to “seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness”; the necessities of daily life would be provided (Matt 6:33).

“Seek first the kingdom of God…” Not second. Not seventh. Not seek the kingdom of God after you’ve managed your home. Not seek the kingdom of God after you’ve paid off your debt.


Seek first the kingdom of God.


This is where I will be planting my tree this year. This is where my roots will go deep. What does he mean with words like kingdom and righteousness? Is he serious that earthly needs will be provided? Just like that? Here I will dig. Here I will research, both in mind and in heart. Here I will camp out. Here I will pray. Here I will place my priority.

Would you like to join me as my roots grow deep in seeking Him first? What is your OneWord for 2017?

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Being Present Physically


When I chose the word “presence” as my word for this year, I was expecting at best a life lesson or two that I would learn by spending a little more time in prayer and Scripture that would not necessarily impact the rest of my life. This has not been true. My primary ways of learning real, true presence has been by force. A few simple, without-a-second-thought things have come into my path and made me realize the act of being present in the moment with much more clarity.

I bought a new pair of work shoes with low wedge heels a few weeks ago. The first day I wore them was the second day of standardized testing week, and I was not allowed to sit down during the entire three hours of testing each day. Literally, one of my bosses would come around and tell me to keep walking around if they ever caught me sitting down. I basically covered my feet in band-aids and little no-show pantyhose socks in order to make it through the week. By walking slower that week and being more intentional about where I placed my steps, I was forced to pay attention. All of a sudden, I was seeing things I had not seen before and noticing things I had not yet noticed. I was present.

The second instance occurred when I decided to paint my nails. I was between two loads of laundry and putting new sheets on my bed when I suddenly had the insatiable urge to paint both my fingernails and toenails. (I had new nail polish that I was excited about trying.) The polish took 87 million years to dry, and I was frustrated with the fact that I had to sit still instead of doing all the things I needed wanted to do next. I was present, albeit frustratingly.

And finally, a cold/allergies/PMS combo left me exhausted and frustrated this week. In addition, the printer at my workplace wasn’t working the entire week, and I had to print a lot at home, and depend on fellow teachers for help. I could not find the best combination of medication to ease any of my symptoms, and I have not taken a shower in 2 and a half days.

Here I am, the morning after this exhausting week, drugged up and covered in Vick’s Vapor Rub, sipping chai tea and eating microwave oatmeal. The floor of my bedroom is littered with used tissues.

It is still difficult to be present.I have five tabs of recipes open on my computer, and I’m trying to calculate prices at certain stores by ounce and cost per portion. I mentally see myself comparison shopping from the Kroger to the Aldi and back again. But I’m not present here.

So I stop the recipe hunting and sip my tea. I listen to the sounds of the cars driving by my apartment complex. It sounds like I am the only person up on this side of the complex. And I try to stop.

Be present. Sit. Listen. Be. Rest.

I’ve been doing yoga for a few months now. I enjoy the stretching and the breathing. I especially enjoy the focus on being in the moment and being with the breath and moving with the breath. When ancient Hindu people did yoga, they tried to clear their minds of everything else, and just focus on nothing. When I, as a twenty-something Christian woman in the 21st century, do yoga, I try to fill my mind with the words of Christ, the breath of my Lord.

By the breath of God, the formless universe took shape. By the breath of God, Adam, Job, and I were crafted. By the breath of God, the Scripture and prophecies therein were composed. By the breath of God, those who come to know Him by His mercy will be cleansed and reborn not by water, but by the Spirit… The Spirit, which is many times known as His very breath.

So often we look at this world and all that must be done and all who must be rescued, and we neglect the very breath of God. We neglect the peace and stillness that comes from being present with the Lord and we jump straight into what we should do next, instead of who we should be now.

I have heard the story of Mary and Martha from Luke chapter 10 enough to know that I hate it. I am a Martha through and through, and I still think she was important and necessary and good. Keeping a clean house and being hospitable and knowing how to cook for a crowd are wonderful, blessed things. Please do not miss those things when you denounce Martha. Her flaw was not that was hospitable. Her flaw was that she did not sit with her Lord (and she complained about her sister to Jesus!). She did not recognize his presence. In essence, she was worried about good things, but she was not present with The Best Thing: the Lord’s very presence. The Lord’s breath. Jesus was literally there and she ran from one task to another without truly seeing him, without sitting at his feet.

No wonder we, 21st-century Christians without a physical Jesus to see and touch, run busily to each task without stopping to be with Him. If Martha did it with God-with-skin-on, how easy it must seem to us to do it when we cannot see and touch Him.

Oh, but sisters and brothers… We can see Him. We can touch Him. In the flowers. In the sunrise. In the kindness of a co-worker who brings us copies when the copy machine is down. In the joy of a child on her birthday. In the simple comfort of chai tea when we’re sick. In the love of a friend, fiance, or spouse.

So often, we run to what must be done instead of being with the One who must be honored. He says to us: “Be still and know that I am God!” before he says: “I will be exalted by every nation.” These sentences may be located in the same verse (Psalm 46:10), but the be still command comes before the exclamation of His honor.

This is why my daily  mostly regular yoga practice is worship. I am being forced to sit still and think about something while stretching or bending or simply breathing. Instead of the mind-numbing techniques of ancients past, I think on my Savior. I meditate by filling my mind with his goodness. Just as his mercies never end, so do my thoughts of him never cease. See Psalm 119 for that continuing meditation.

This is why I have realized that I cannot be upset when little things, like new shoes and painted nails and sicknesses give me pause (or, more accurately, force me to be still). Have I forgotten that “I will see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living”? (Psalm 27:13). I see his goodness revealed best when I stop and look.

In the same way, I love others best when I stop and look. 1 John 3:17 says that you must first “See a brother or sister in need” before choosing to be compassionate or not. How can I love when I do not see? How can I minister to the hurting world when I do not stop?

When I am not still with my Savior, I do not see what his eyes see.

So, how to be physically present in this season? Currently, I am finishing my second year of teaching, planning a wedding, and recovering from a sickness and a surgery. But I can be physically present by:

  • Reading His Words – I had great plans for a huge and complicated Bible Study program to begin in January. I think I followed the program for 2 days. That isn’t feasible for an everyday study for me. Instead, I have a devotional journal that I strive to read each night, and I strive to read a section or chapter of Scripture each morning. It doesn’t always happen, but that’s my goal.
  • Prayer – I struggle with consistent prayer. A non-Christian student of mine asked me if we were allowed to pray more than a certain number of times each day. I told him that we were encouraged to pray without ceasing, to make our lives be full of prayer. It was a very convicting conversation for me. I’ve found that when I let the name of Jesus be ever on my lips, prayer comes so much more easily. I’m continuing to work on this by opening my heart to prayer, not just my mind.
  • Physical Activity – For me, yoga and walking are my physical ways to be physically present. Yoga is the calm, meditative method. Walking is the more active way. Whatever you choose, do it. And stay with it.
  • Focus on who God is and what God does – “I will meditate on your majestic, glorious splendor and your wonderful miracles.” (Psalm 145:5)

Hello 2016

It’s been a crazy year… But haven’t they all been crazy recently?

When 2015 dawned, I was bowling with my mom, brother, stepdad, and stepfamily. It’s a long-standing family tradition. I celebrated six months with that handsome guy in January, turned in my first real resignation letter in March, and began the process of moving to a new state. During a Sunday morning sermon, our pastor explained that sometimes we don’t see the next step. We don’t see point C when we’re standing at point A. We have to step out in faith to point B and follow God’s leading. He said: “Jesus is standing on the waves, calling you to step out of the boat in faith,” referencing Peter’s walk on water. At that moment, I realized God was asking me to follow Him to my next place, which involved moving closer to the guy who would soon become my fiance. So, I took a new job, moved to a new city with new roommates in a new apartment, and fell deeper in love with the handsome guy I’m marrying in less than six months. He proposed in October, and it was perfect.

In 2015, my OneWord was love. One single word to focus on for the entire year. That’s three hundred and sixty five days of one word. One. Word.

But y’all… It works. I learned so much about love. When 2015 began, I was celebrating six months with my first and only boyfriend. When 2016 begins, I will celebrating less than six months until we say “I do.”

When 2015 began, I was learning how to continue to love a Buddhist co-teacher. When 2016 begins, I will be learning how to continue to show love to 60 sweet and crazy teenagers.

When 2015 began, I was praying for the future service opportunities I would have to show love to others. When 2016 begins, I will move from assistant to teacher roles in the toddler class at church.

Above my desk in my bedroom hangs a quote from Ann Voskamp:

You love as well as you are willing to be inconvenienced.

So much truth. Love is not easy or convenient or simple. Love cannot be an afterthought. The beautiful thing is we get another shot each day. I’m not the best at showing my fiance that I love him, and sometimes I find it difficult to accept his love, but I know that he’s not going anywhere. He loves me, and we are willing to try again if we didn’t do such a great job of showing that love this time around.


As we move into 2016 in the next few hours, I wanted to take a moment to announce my OneWord for this year. In a world of smartphones and commercials and social media and pushy waitresses, I want to focus. I want to be in the moment. Like the quote: “Wherever you go, be all there.” I want to be mentally aware where I am physically existing. I want to be connected to my body, my soul, my emotions, and my Savior. I want to be real with people who are actually in the same room with me. I want to pray with passion because God and I are actually having a real and meaningful conversation. I want to give and serve and love it. I want to invest into people and I want to be invested in. I want to go and meet and dream and love. I want to be present.